I have spent most of this week overwhelmed, scared, in tears and having bad dreams. I’ve taken a step back to look at my own heart and prejudice, and how I want to change going forward.
I really wanted to disconnect from social media, and to hide… and I did for a couple hours. I also took a very long hot shower, spent some time soaking in the sun and praying.
God put it on my heart that he didn’t let me live and shine to hide.
I don’t have anything brilliant to write. I will only say that the events of this week have broken my heart, and in saying that , I know full well that this breaking tore it open to more fully love and understand others… and I have to remain open no matter how much it hurts.
George Floyd did not deserve to die that way. No human being does. I didn’t want to watch the video. I didn’t want that in my head… But, I realize that I can’t look away. Looking away is part of the problem.
I don’t know what the solution is. The only thing that I know is that I choose love. I’m choosing to spread love, and I’m asking you to do the same.