Wow, so it’s been nearly a year since TEB ( the ex boyfriend ) broke up with me and I moved back to Texas from N Carolina. It wasn’t my first rodeo for sure, but it was the first relationship in many, many years where I felt loved for who I truly am…. as well as having hope for not spending the rest of my life alone.
I sold nearly everything that I owned to move to N Carolina to be with him. Despite the fact that it didn’t work out, and I am still in rebuilding mode, I have no regrets. Zero. If anything, I am proud of myself for taking a chance and going all in. I am proud of myself for being strong enough to do what most people never will.
I am proud of myself for starting over, not once after my marriage ended… but twice with this relationship, and for coming out of it a stronger and better person.
I found a new job that gives me challenge and purpose. Sure, ultimately I don’t want my life to be about work… but it really helped me keep one foot in front of the other, and to rebuild my confidence in myself. I’m really good at it.
Anyway, at first I started dating again… trying to put a band aid on my hurt. But my heart wasn’t in it. I really felt a pretty strong dislike, distrust…. oh I don’t know… just generally nothing good in terms of men. I tried to find a good man… a nice guy… but again, just knew I was going through the motions. That wasn’t fair to anyone.
So I decided to take a break… and then decided I liked the break. So now it is many, many months later and I am the healthiest and happiest I have ever been.
Not having sex for months on end sucks… but my mind is clear and my decisions are sound.
And, I have someone special in my life. We haven’t met in person yet, but we have been talking for eight months now. My friend Cheeky “introduced” me online to a male friend of hers who lives local to me.
That is a story for another day.
Anyway… I needed time to breathe. And I took it. And I changed.
Still the original glitter girl 🙂
So what is this blog going to be? I’m not sure yet. But I hope you’ll welcome me back into your world and join me on a new path.