The dating is sometimes about personal growth guy…he and I have been texting. It’s been very sporadic and honestly felt chilly, but tonight he reached out… And ended up calling me.
We were discussing D/s and BDSM… And he has very little to no knowledge… Aside from some kinky friends.
He doesn’t want to always make the decisions. Or be responsible.
Doesn’t want to cause pain.
I hear all that. I get it. And I wish I didn’t crave/need it… But I do.
And so here’s the thing. I like this guy. Like I really like him.
When I thought he was upset with me I didn’t sleep well, and it ruined my day off afterwards.
So what to do ?
I really want to keep talking to him. Seeing him.
Is this the right thing to do ?
Because I would want/ expect him to change in time. That’s not right.
Is it ?
I’m understanding I’d have to give too.
A chance at something real is worth more than kink right? D/s ?
But I don’t want to be wishing for more.
I don’t know.
I haven’t even kissed him yet. Why does he stir so much in me ?
Maybe his kiss will suck?
Maybe it won’t
What then ?
My head hurts.