Is something there for him, or is it just in my mind and heart ?
How could I still love him after all these years? I have never once doubted my feelings. Why ?
I don’t think he has ever lied to me. We didn’t break up because of any betrayal, or bad event… Which is I guess why I never flip that switch completely off.
I did activate dating profiles again, and like any female, found my inbox flooded. However, really only a couple good prospects. Found myself wondering what would happen if I hit it off with someone here?
And then my phone alerted that I had messages… TW sharing a beautiful picture of snow
falling in the mountains.
It occurred to me that I was sitting in my car with the biggest and most ridiculous ear to ear grin on my face.
And there it is again.
What I do know, is that if we do give this a chance… And it doesn’t work out, I have to let him go completely.
I am not being negative… But I do see clearly that holding onto him has meant my heart has never fully belonged to anyone else.
That is not to say that I have not loved… I have. But …this….