Tonight I’m agitated. Not really for any particular reason… I just feel stressed. It’s probably just being overly tired. I haven’t been sleeping well.
I’m not sure why about that either.
Usually I sleep really well. It’s frustrating.
Today was my day off from work. Last week I worked a six day week…That alone has me frazzled. Today I had to be up early because one of my staff was sick. I’m questioning that really, but that’s really my intuition and not something I’m going to pursue anyhow…
Then I’m dealing with taking one of my dogs to be groomed. That entailed driving 30 minutes out of my way to pick up his shot records, because I use an old school country vet.. and their fax machine was down. They don’t know how to use a smart phone… or don’t care too… not sure… but either way, it ended up with me having to drive there and then the vet basically fussing at me because I’d asked for these records to be sent to too many places ( three previously ) and giving me three paper copies with the expressly implied message of don’t bother us again with this.
The other copies were requested by rescue agencies actually- I was trying to adopt a dog, and unfortunately had several inquiries that didn’t turn into anything.
I did adopt a dog eventually. Maggie May is perfect for me and Bluebell, and I’ll tell her story another time.
So I don’t do conflict well. And this just frazzles my nerves. I was nice and apologetic, when I really should have said I’m the customer and who fucking cares if you had to fax it three times. Charge for your time. Whatever. But I didn’t.
I sucked my feelings down. I smiled. I apologized and hated feeling chastised like a child when I’m the customer.
I don’t let people walk on me at work. It’s the one place in my life where I don’t take shit. God only knows how that happened.
Then I had to do a work conference call. What should have been a short call turned into an hour. Corporate mindset and goals, goals, goals…
Ugh, I’m so not relaxed.
Finally got to go home and still don’t feel relaxed. Work calls me again. Ugh.
Watched tv most of the day. snuggled with the dogs. Can’t shake this keyed up feeling.
Hope I get some good rest tonight.
Yeah, first world problems. For sure.
I need to learn to tell people to fuck off.